I’m finding that so much of this journey is discovering where you want to go—what you really and truly want to create. It sounds so trite on this side of that little piece of insight. But it’s so not plain when you start out. And how can it be?! We ask our kids at various times, what do you want to be when you grow up? And they answer astronauts and ballerinas and veterinarians but they have no idea what that really means other than the images they see in slick movie and TV shows. How are they supposed to know that getting to the moon requires all sorts of MATH?!!
I joke that I lost my way when I was around eight or nine and I realized that being a vet meant giving dogs shots and putting them down.
My new line of questioning is more along the lines of “What do you actually do… like describe your ideal day.” A lot of times people’s answers don’t necessarily match up with the fancy title they have as their “goal.”
I need quiet.
I need light.
I need a pretty space to work that I can call my own.
I love to do things with my hands.
I like the feeling of being connected to nature.
I love “parallel play” — working alongside others but working independently.
I want validation and appreciation.
I work best within a structure.
Occasional dance parties are good for my soul. 🙂
This list is a work in progress but it feels good being able to say these things… and even better realizing that this list very much reflects my current experience.